Thursday, 12 November 2015

Writing

I might actually try to start writing again.
Lately I am in need of something that perhaps need an expression.
Not that I can't show it in reality, no.

Writing for me is beautiful.
How someone construct the words
How they can transfer your emotions
How someone feels by reading the words
How the words can form and make you smile

But of course it all depends on the words use by the author itself.

Maybe i should pick up on writing again and just freely express what i think instead of trying to conceal it.
Writing is after all, beautiful. (mine may be not)
So perhaps (hopefully), by picking it up again i can let out a bit of this heavy burden in my chest that sometimes need to be release.

Buuuut, we'll see

Saturday, 4 July 2015

Marrriiaagee

It's almost 3 am and apparently i can't seems to sleep.
It has been a while and lately I've been hearing bout this all the time honestly.
So, here we go.

Marriage, is scary.
All these girls saying how they wanted to get married early and have a husband who care for them? I don't think they truly understand what it means to be married.
When you are married, it's no more funs and games.
You have to be cautious of who you talk to.
Where you'll go.
All your future plans need to consider your partner.
Everything you do, you need to consider your partner's feelings.
That is what it's like to be committed.

During the early stages of marriage might be the highlight of your life.
Then comes the challenges.
Your career. Kids. Household income. Savings.
Especially kids.

If you think that you're ready for the commitment and the challenges that you're going to face that's alright.
But nowadays, people didn't put much thought in these things.

When you do know that your time is right,
you won't only be saying how excited you are of the marriage life.
Instead, deep down, you'll be thinking over and over again whether you are ready for it because although it is one of the greatest things in life, it is also the most important decision you'll ever make which changes everything.

So, don't be saying how you can't wait to get married when you yourself are not ready.
Cause when the time is right. You'll know it by then.

Sunday, 4 January 2015

MUET's Story. #1

So, right now it's 5.45 a.m. and currently I can't sleep.
I'm having a terrible migraine from yesterday evening and I slept from 10.00p.m. till 3.00am.
I really hope I can get a deep sleep but i guess not. My body clock is so used of sleeping for 5 hours a day.
*sigh* need to change that i guess.

So here am I. Trying to get some sleep but can't and it's already almost Subuh.

But that is not the reason why I'm writing this post.

Before the clock points at 10.00 a.m. in which the result came out, I wanted to share an experience. In which I hope people won't be as idiotic as I am.

So first, the speaking test.
Truthfully, I love speaking test. It requires me to talk and I talk a lot.
My experience as a debater from high school and a little while in university definitely helps me a lot.
Every time there is a speaking test in university, I'll be very excited truthfully.
But then, when it is the actual MUET test, I screwed up. A lot.

I was seated as candidate D and we were given 2 minutes to brainstorm the ideas for the individual test. After almost 2 minutes and i swear its like 2 seconds before 2 minutes, the invigilator or i guess the ummm... Judge? Switch me and candidate B's position because they made a mistake.
I don't know about you but I find it difficult to switch my view to other perspective immediately after I had given a thought about the first one really hard.

So, we switch position as well as our points.
And, we were given 2 minutes extra to brainstorm the ideas and really, that doesn't help me a lot.
It's funny because the paper given to scribble to me had only about a few lines about my points and so, i guess it affect my performance i guess.
Seriously though, i never stop speaking before the 2 minutes is up. And that day is the first for me to say. "...and yes, thank you"

Luckily i guess I didn't really screwed up my group discussion though.
It was pretty informal cause we kinda make a joke during the discussion.

Move on to the day of the Reading, Writing and Listening test.

I had no major problem for reading test though. Only that my phone's alarm clock at the back was screaming as loud as possible and force me to switch it off. Haha.

For writing, I guess I am most concern about it cause you know, it's writing and I am never am that good with writing an essay be it my language or English.
But I am pretty thrilled when the topic given is about games.
Muahahaha. I think I smiled too much when I read the topic.
Soo, for that I am happy. Only the topic though.

And the listening. Probably not so much of a problem. The audio was quite clear i guess cause I only missed a few words. But the problem of the listening test is not the question.

After we were done, the invigilator told us to leave the answer sheets and leave the room which somewhat is weird cause you know, you weren't suppose to leave the room unless you paper has been collected. But never mind that. I was too excited to go back and just grab the paper on my table without checking it first.

Have you ever wondered if there is someone who accidentally bring back their answer's sheets?
Yup. That. Is. Me.

And to make it worse, i didn't even realize it until i get home and it's 20 minutes away.

And to make it even more worse, when I get back, my phone slipped and hit the tiles 'facepalm' and break the glass.
Make it even more worse, I can't use my phone. The touchscreen can't even work.

I wonder if it is a sign of telling me you did badly for your MUET.
*sigh*

So there I was, testing my sim card to my old phone and tablets and everything that fits,
I manage to use a tablet as a temporary substitute and after not even 5 minutes I received a call.

"Ni Ainaa Hasinah ke?"

Oh shyt.

So she ask me question like, "You sit for MUET today right?"
"Did you submit your paper?"
"Are you sure you did that?"
"Can you please check your bag?"

AAAHHHH. I think my face was very pale at that time when I found the paper inside my bag all crumpled like.

So I went back to submit the paper and had to make a report of the incident on how I accidentally brought the paper back.
They were quite surprised that the invigilator let us go before hand it to her.

So there I was. Alone making a report and all.
Scared to death? Yup. Especially since MUET kinda decide my life. (ya know, Law Student and all)

Even wondered what happened if you didn't hand in the paper? Now you got the answer.

Although partly, it is the invigilator's fault, I am also at fault for being careless.
Too excited to go back i guess.

And the fact that I got the call almost immediately after I switch my device feels too lucky.
Although in my case I would not call it lucky.

So lesson learned, do not be careless. Always, i repeat. ALWAYS check everything before you leave.


Thursday, 1 January 2015

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Oh my, I feel sooo idiotic for not realizing that it is 2015!!!



And the reason I am posting this is because, there is something i need to clarify.

The post before 2012, please ignore it. It really looks childish. and all the grammar mistake.
(i mean, it is much worse than now)

And, Rasa like Idiotic sangat-sangat

It's like you read your primary school's diary.
Soooo embarrassing.

So, I will appreciate it a lot if you would just.... you know.(ummm)

And i noticed that there are a lot of pictures that I posted last time didn't seems to appear.
So, it will take awhile for me to edit those things.

Byyee, and Happy New Year!


photo from : http://scifiportal.eu/happy-new-year-a-great-2015/

It has been awhile.

Assalammualaikum, *ehem*


It really has been awhile now huh.
A lot of things happened. A lot of things changed.
For better (or worse) i have changed.

I am now 18 years old. (Yup. Legal Age) and soon going to be 19 in about 4 months.
There has been already some of my friends have been considering marriage as an option. (haha)
Not for me i guess, maybe not at this time. There is too much things that need to change.
Both me and my surroundings.
Okay now, that should be enough about marriage.

So, among all things that I wanted to share, it would be that I got accepted as a Law Student.
Well, Foundation Law Student anyway.
But YES! There is still the word 'LAW' in Foundation of Law and for that I am Happy. *grin*

I never mentioned it before, but I have been aiming for Law subject for yearsss!
Okay, that doesnt seems fair. From 15 years old i mean. All thanks to my eldest brother, Adib.
He is now working as a lawyer in a law firm and is finishing his part time master for law.
He might be the reason why I wanted to pursue in this course.

Anyway, that is enough about Law. (still grinning)

Hmm, let see....

Oh! I actually am an owner of 3 cats.
A few weeks after the last post from this blog, I bought a cat which lead to 3.
Ummmm, I'll post about the cats later though.

Next!

I joined debating in university. Been in a tournament once and then i quit.
It sounds idiotic, i know.
Long story. To make it short, there has been a few reasons that made me quit.
But hey, the experience was amazing. All the debaters were really awesome.
Although I only indulge myself for a few months, I enjoy it quite a lot.

Okay, what else,

Nope. I guess that is all the 'big' things that have been going in my life. 
(That I would write here anyway)

And, that is it. Thanks for reading. (IF you really are reading though)